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End of October 2021: Forecasting

Happy Halloween! I hope you are staying safe and enjoying the suspension of disbelief for a little while! I am in a coffee shop in Bowery dressed as Princess Mononoke, the titular character from Miyazaki’s 1997 film, Princess Mononoke. No one really gets this costume. hahaha

October has flown by and has felt like a breath of fresh air. I can’t pretend like the cold breezes and darker days don’t get to me, but the Fall weather has been mostly great thus far. And something about the sunlight on colder days makes one feel so alive.

I titled this month’s blog “Forecasting” because it seems like the time of year where we suddenly become aware of where we stand. This can encapsulate academic calendars, careers, love lives, friendships, and anything that takes time. I guess most all things take time. It’s tempting to put things on timelines because that’s how we operate; we want to know. But it’s also a good time to just let things be.

I hope you take some time to resist the urge to forecast everything. I know I want to. Things that are supposed to happen will surely happen. And the rest will evade history. Or something.

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“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”

-Sylvia Plath, “Mad Girl’s Love Song”

I definitely feel some kind of relief, but I’m trying not to put too much pressure on 2021. Years are just numbers anyways. Who even says time has any authority? (Or is even real?) All I know is that something has shifted. It might not be what we think, but I’m glad for it.

So… what’s next? I think the past summer has trained me to go with the flow, which is a good thing overall. It was really great to not feel like I had to be or do anything in particular. But at the same time, I learned to expect less and feel less. I kinda miss manifesting and feeling those steep ups and downs. Though this past summer was not lacking in steep downs.

How are you? I’ve been eating a lot of sweets and I definitely feel the repercussions. I guess that’s what getting older is… which is more repercussions. More of your body reacting to things.

I’m excited to move to the city and relearn how to be myself. I miss being alone. It’s weird how cities make you feel more alone. And that feeling is so great sometimes.