This picture is from a forest in Western Washington, east of Seattle. It is full of evergreen trees and ferns and mushrooms. I missed being there so much. I missed the way that the forest can make one feel so small…
End of the Month meets the End of the Year and it has definitely been a year. I have been exchanging remarks with friends and family and we seem to be in agreement; the year passed by unbelievably quick, but also unbearably slow. It was a year that didn’t happen, but it was a year that contained it all.
Not to be melodramatic, but I feel a sense of defeat at the end of this year. Personally, there are so many things happening in my life that I am excited about and very grateful for. But on a global scale and on a generational level, this year doesn’t feel like a victory, nor do I feel particularly excited about another year. I feel tired, but have I really done anything but live my little life? Not really. On one hand, I feel so spoiled. On another hand, I feel that our generation has earned the right to be discontent about whatever. I should probably stop writing in generalizations.
Just speaking for myself now: I think there is such value in slowing down with things and being present. I love a good dissociation session, but taking stock of the moment brings such a deep peace and an acknowledgment of how I feel in my own body. I don’t know. It’s hard to describe. But after living through so much, what can we do but just be? After the best of times or the worst of times… it’s back to being.
Thanks for reading this year and for being here. Thanks for indulging my wannabe blogger self. This personal journal/monthly update/vanity project has been a really nice way for me to process the passage of time. If you liked it, I will be even happier. And if you really liked it, you’ll be happy to know that we got picked up for another year of End of the Month baby!**
**by this I mean that WordPress automatically billed my credit card for another year
SHL ❤
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