On Living: Mary Oliver and the Woods

So I don’t post much on this blog beyond my end-of-month posts, but today I was absolutely floored by a Mary Oliver poem and had to put my thoughts down. Here is the poem:

Look, the trees
are turning
their own bodies
into pillars

of light,
are giving off the rich
fragrance of cinnamon
and fulfillment,

the long tapers
of cattails
are bursting and floating away over
the blue shoulders

of the ponds,
and every pond,
no matter what its
name is, is

nameless now.
Every year
everything
I have ever learned

in my lifetime
leads back to this: the fires
and the black river of loss
whose other side

is salvation,
whose meaning
none of us will ever know.
To live in this world

you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it

against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.


“In Blackwater Woods” by Mary Oliver, from American Primitive. © Back Bay Books, 1983.

I don’t know what to say. But here are words anyways. Mary Oliver is a genius. I don’t know how she gets away with so much little repetition, yet manages to keep pace in this poem. I don’t know why the choice of “three things” works so well when this is not a fairytale. I don’t know how she can get away with using the word “salvation.” I don’t know how I can see the Blackwater Woods in my mind now, though I have never been to Cape Cod.

I love the woods. I love the cyclic nature of the woods. I love the peace and the slow growth. I love big existence. Nature is a trope that is all at once so overdone, so necessary, and so true. I don’t know! This poem makes me so emotional; it makes me think about how there are so many things and people I want to hold against my bones. And how everything is so ephemeral. But still, it is better this way.

Here are some songs that give me a similar feeling: the bigness of life and existence. The smallness of today in the scheme of everything. Enjoy them today and every day.

I think this song is in a famous movie from the past thirty years. I don’t remember which one.
This song is so phenomenal and so beautiful. I think the title is genius too.
This song makes me want to be in love.

End of April 2021: On Collapsing: Frank O’Hara and Lana Turner

I was reminded of this poem in Frank O’Hara’s Lunch Poems when I saw a man collapsed on the street the other day. It was at a distance and there were people surrounding him and aiding him. This poem is just called “Poem.”

POEM
by Frank O'Hara, 1962

Lana Turner has collapsed!
I was trotting along and suddenly
it started raining and snowing
and you said it was hailing
but hailing hits you on the head
hard so it was really snowing and
raining and I was in such a hurry
to meet you but the traffic
was acting exactly like the sky
and suddenly I see a headline
LANA TURNER HAS COLLAPSED!
there is no snow in Hollywood
there is no rain in California
I have been to lots of parties
and acted perfectly disgraceful
but I never actually collapsed
oh Lana Turner we love you get up

A few things were on my mind:

  • the lack of punctuation (only the exclamation points)
  • the eminence of the climate (the heat!)
  • the exasperation/vague hurry that Frank is always operating within
  • the sense of place: New York (but is it New York?)

The “get up” really does something genius for me. It feels so immediate, yet so casual. So urgent, yet there is no follow up. The poem feels like a single breath and this last line feels like a little exhale. It’s really so great.

This poem kind of gives me déjà vu in that it reminds me of just being alive. This is a good reminder for this time of year. It’s rainy. Time seems to spiral away from us and the days feel so heavy, yet so breathless. Do you know what I mean?

Time Warp New Year

 I have been hungry to write this poem 
 ever since November clipped the days 
 blue and short. The horrible thing is that…
  
 I walked past the General Grant Memorial
 defending a song by keeping it on, pausing only
 to remember when there was no snow.
  
 Two days ago a man catcalled me saying
 Hey! Relax!
  
 Some things are just human, like never drinking
 enough water, or always choosing the bench which
 faces the sun.
  
 Or wanting to feel new and different. As I sat there,
 a man threw snow at a tree and left walking west
 in the other direction.